Siblings - Family Pain

I am allowed phone calls. Her sister and brother were here, I put it on speaker. They were excited to hear her voice as they can not call or see her.First there was joy in their eyes but then a hint of sadness. They know they can not speak for fear I will lose my phone privileges. 
Malia heard them in the background and wanted to know who is here and what we are doing. I must lie. I can not make her feel more left out or alone. It would break her heart to know we are going to watch a movie without her.
I either lie or just flat out not tell her what is going on back home. I have to protect Malia.
Malia missed Thanksgiving, 2 Christmas parties, the visit to her brothers to see what my grand babies got. She missed 2 birthday parties, her sister in law's baby shower, 2 trips to her sister and niece's house, missed movies, shopping and little family gatherings. Our family is close. It has been incomplete without Malia and the pain is palpable.
My other children are adults. They have shared their pain and told of the times they spend in tears. They cry themselves to sleep. How many tears has Malia shed in silence, alone?
She talks about coming home and makes me take some of her things when I visit. Things we can play or do when she comes home. Will she come home? When?
What kind of a home will it be? It can never be as before, it can never be a safe, happy and secure place. There will always be that fear of her being taken away. Stolen.
My children, grand babies, my mom and other family members don't want to stop over. It is too quiet. It is so empty. It is filled with her presence and her belongings, they are everywhere but she is far away.

They look at her Barbie house, her books on the shelf,they pass by her room and it is all as she left it.
I get pressure from my family to do more. Try this or try that. They are outraged. 

I can barely take the pain I feel from her being gone. I then have the added pain of watching it destroy and hurt my entire family. I am a mom. I have to make things right.
Can I ever make it right? Can I heal all of their pain? Can I take the hurt out of their eyes and their hearts?
I am fighting government corruption, I am fighting money and evil. How can I?
I don't know how but I will continue to fight. I can not let evil destroy my family. I need to stop the tears.


“When the lives and the rights of children are at stake, there must be no silent witnesses.” 
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