As I grow older the behavior of my father continues to get more uncomfortable. Is this normal? Daddy says girls like to do this, it feels good. Daddy shows me pictures and tells me the girls like to do these things that we look at together. We look at pictures on his phone, we look at pictures in magazines.
Why would daddy lie? They must like it. I should like it.
I don't.
I am afraid. I am afraid to tell him no. I am afraid to tell him to stop.
He said he would shoot my mommy.
He spanks me, puts me on the dark and scary steps. He looks at me and his eyes are mean.
I have been telling my mommy. I have been showing her the things the girls do in the pictures. When I was little I tried to show her with my actions, behaviors as I couldn't find the words.
Mommy believes me and mommy tries to help.
I told my counselor, my sister and my brother. They believe me too.
Other people that are suppose to help won't. They must not believe me. Why won't they?
He takes me to the cabin in the woods. No one else is near, no one can hear. He made me touch him, he touched me and it hurt. He made me lick him and it was gross.
I drew pictures. I don't draw that well. They saw my pictures and they heard my story but they don't believe me.
Why?
Mommy asked me why I was so upset when she said I may have to go back to daddy, alone. No one will be there to supervise. I cried. I laid on the floor and cried. When mommy calmed me down I told her. "I don't want to go back, daddy will make me do it again."
Can someone help me? Mommy tries but she needs help.
I want to play. I want to sing and dance. I want to feel safe.
Who will keep me safe?
I understand where you are coming from. The question is why doesn't your mother do more to keep your father and you separate? Since they live apart they apparently are divorced. What did your mother do in the marriage? Did she refuse your father? I am guilty of what he did too. But I recognize the evil and harm it did to my victim. I'll never do it again because I recognize the harm. I don't blame you. You might want to talk to your mother and read some books. I recommend "Broken Taboo: Sex In The Family" by Blair and Rita Justice.
ReplyDeleteher mother called cps and they did nothing. The parents do not live together. Mom must send her to father or go to jail.She is 6 and no one will help her or her mother.
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